ini ceritera saya

menjadi atau x?

2011-10-30T19:00:00.002+08:00

ya Allah ammmiiinnn kalau impian ni terjadi.mama mcam dh bg green light nk beli neo ni.ish isshhh nk buat solat hajat lahh.tapi dlm sem 2 or sem 3 bru menjadi kenyataan.hihi.xpe sbar kumpul duit dulu noks.hihi.

Uitm Shah Alam

2011-08-06T08:10:00.000+08:00

Alhamdulilah,at last aku dapat ape yang aku nak,a better life,and also i got the course i want.MC223,Fakulti Komunikasi dan Pengajian Media,Sarjana Muda dalam bidang penyiaran..akhirnya achi bakal melanjutkan pelajaran dalam degree.okay umur 19 dh masuk degree.bertuahnya saya.Alhamdulilah.syukurr ya Allah.

untunglah

2011-06-30T22:44:00.001+08:00

untunglah lepak dengan kawan smpai ke pagi boleh.skype dgn aky bru 20 min dh nk tido..haihhhh..untunglahhhhhhhhh..untunlah jd kawan.

1 2 3 COBAAAAANN

2011-06-24T03:37:00.002+08:00

fingers crossed,i hope youre sleeping now.so that i would feel much better.

2011-06-22T22:10:00.001+08:00

You dont have to be mad at me.you,broke my heart.

its a blessing

2011-06-17T06:25:00.000+08:00

aha.sudah lama x berblogging.aww..rindu saya ye?

topic pagi pagi buta nh.have you ever fall in love with the same person over and over again?

hmmm..well seeing you sleeping tonight on skype made me feel this special feeling.just like that first moment we were together..i fall in love.hmm.malam nh lain sikit sebab cik khairul tido dalam iman.die tido senyum hr nh ;DD aha.comel tapi teruk noo perangai ang.mimpi best lettew..

ehmm..well said this is not the first time i felt that way.almost everytime we meet,we laughed we cuddled.hmm.i feel those feelings keep coming back.as if they were refreshed or renew.aha..call me crazy but this is what i think true love might be.its how you felt about thee.thou and thee..okay.i dont knw whether you might be feeling the same as well but i sure do hope so..but naah its not important.whats impportant is i know you love me all along.have you guys ever feel the same way towards the person you love?i know i have.yes me!

to tell you guys the truth im loving this feeling just like how i love you.no need names,you know who you are.i bet all of you guys reading this knows too :D

this is a comeback for me.an inspiration for me to write again.sorry it bores you guys because i keep telling about that one same person.who care this is MY blog,MY stories,MY fairy tale.

buddy

2011-05-01T19:56:00.000+08:00

sorry i deleted you,sory for everything,im just sorry,i would not want you to hurt again,i didnt talk bad about you,sumpah i didnt,and for once again,i did it for fun :) which turn out to be a disaster.if you dont believe theres a video about that incident in your phone.do look up for it.tc there buddy.thanks for everything and im sorry.

kerana dirimu begitu berharga

2011-04-10T02:37:00.001+08:00

tolong buat aku rasa pilihan aku kali nh worth it.tolong buat aku rasa aku dengan kau sangat worth it untuk kembali bersama.

2011-04-07T17:04:00.000+08:00

and in case you were wondering,i still love you with all the pieces of my crooked heart.

which i intend to let it go.to let it go for once in my life.to let you go.to let everything that meant so much to us.go.just go.but i cant.

TOP 30

2011-04-05T20:00:00.000+08:00

aku x tau lah nh lagu lama ke apa kan tapi entry kali nh aku nk share something share lagu yg aku slalu dgr dlm mp3 hp s.e satio bodoh nh.aha

aslyn - thats when i love you
m2m - the day you went away
keri hilson - promise in the dark
shontelle - say hello to goodbye
yellowcard - only one
muse - unintended
travie mccoy - need you
bruno mars - again
basshunter - all i ever wanted
alexandra burke - all night long
taylor swift - back to december
firhaien - biar pergi
bruno mars - grenade hooligans remix
evanescence - calll me when youre sober
usher - burn
paramore - careful
katy perry - e.t
versaEmerge - fixed at zero
christina perri - jar of hearts
bruno mars - marry you
pink - fucking perfect
papa roach - scars
nickelback - far away
nickelback - photograph
nickelback - i'd come for you
buckcherry - sorry
taylor swift - speak now
taylor swift - youre not sorry
lukestar - the shade you hide <3
jason mraz - you and i both

banyak lagu sedih yea?ahaha jiwang lah kot aku nh :P

for the last time

2011-04-05T14:33:00.002+08:00

'kenapa Allah bg kita kenangan sedangkan Dia tau kenangan itu hanya menyakitkan?'

Allah bg aku berjaya dalam hidup dan menempatkan aku kt matriks melaka ini.tetapi bila dah smpai penghujung ini haaihh..agak sedih bila nk meninggalkan rakan2 kt sini,.entahla sebab aku tau mmg kitorg akan susah nk berjumpa semula lepas nh.yelah bukannya masing2 duduk rumah sbelah sbelah ataupun block sbelah sbelah je mcm sekarang.mcm skrg jerit pun diorg boleh dgr.tny homework tayah bazir crdt jerit je.satu kmm boleh dengar.aha.sedih.sangat sedih.mungkin masing masing x tau aku sayang mereka selama 10 bulan kitorg bersama sbb sememangnya aku x reti nk tunjuk kasih sayang aku kt kawan.family pun..bf tu entah knpe sng je kan.aha.cite lame -.- dah.hmm...

SELAMAT TINGGAL A2P4,KMM-RIANS :)

final

2011-04-04T21:09:00.000+08:00

this is not final fantasy or final destination but this i final of my final year in matriculation.aha.who would expect ill be leaving in less than 3 weeks.so long my hell in this world.hate it here.love the friends,love the memories.but i just hate being here.pejam celik pejam celik 10 bulan dh aku habiskan dkt sini.rmbut pendek ke pnjng dan kembali berambut pendek gila babi.aha.banyak kenangan banyak perkara terjadi.tapi tempat ini mmg neraka dunia bg aku.aha x sabar nk pulang ke rumah.pulang menjalani kehidupan sebagai budak seremban.aha.achi.sebut ja.mesti orang x kenal -.-' di seremban.banyak kenangan juga.ish teruk saja la u achi.kata hadi hosni.aha.tpi betullah.teruk saja laa aku nh.aha.goodbye laptop,hello books.the one and only bf <3

kata kata kesat

2011-04-03T23:00:00.002+08:00

lagi sekali kite berdentum.kali ni paling pedih paling sakit.sebabnya mulut kau lagi lancang.paling lancang penah aku dengar sepanjang aku kenal kau.hati kalau dh hari hari disakitkan lama lama numb juga.bagus juga dh numb.buatlah lagi buatlah lagi.best.sebab dah x rasa apa2.nangis?ah membazir je.sakit hati,ah buat pedih hati sndri ja.aha.xpela.aku bg kau last chance tapi kau ckp cmtu pula.nasib lah.banyak sgt empathy dekat orang inilah akibatnya.dipijak pijak pijak berulang ulang kali smpaikan kepala kau,kau rasa dh jd alas kaki pun kau dh x kesah.haa tu lah aku sekarang tak kesah.biaq pi la hang nk buat apa.

ade seorang manusia berguna bg aku nasihat pagi td. 'chi kau dh ade matlamat hidup kau.kejar dulu yang tu lupakan yang nh.kejar dulu masa depan kau.' haa betul kan.masa depan aku bukan kau yg tentukan aku sndri.hasil dr tgn aku sndri.so nasib hangpa la nk hidop macam mana sekali pun.cheq dh xnok amek kesah dohh..

weird

2011-04-03T22:50:00.000+08:00

'achi,hari nh kau cantik.cantik sangat.' - Fadhy.

thanks fadhy :)

thanks Dilla

ilyguys.

thanks,my own Blair Waldorf

i feel prettier with you guys by my side

cantik

2011-04-02T03:17:00.002+08:00

thanks to you malam sy indah.hee hanya kerana awk ckp sy cantik <3

kata hati

2011-04-02T00:39:00.001+08:00

life aku,orang cakap aku kena ikut kata hati.aku kena ikut hati aku sebab semuanya psl aku.bukan psl org lain.

a i r m a t a

2011-03-31T21:13:00.001+08:00

aku rasa aku bukan lagi the one kau.aku bukan lagi tempat kau bercerita.aha lupa aku dh lama bukan the one kau.sudahlaa..lepaskan aku..biarlah aku merasa nikmat dunia tanpa sedih.aku bukan tempat rujukan pertama kau.aku rasa tersisih..air mata aku harap sangat kau mampu confident untuk melihat dunia lagi,bantulah aku untuk melepaskan semuanya buat terakhir kali..bantulah..aku merayu.dah lama kau menyepi.tolonglah keluar.bantu aku melepaskan semuanyaa..

terima kasih blog,fb dh tiada,hanya kau tempat aku meluahkan isi hati.

hey stranger,

2011-03-31T20:57:00.001+08:00

hey stranger,mr anonymous 4:21 AM,i know who you are.from the first time i read it.i immediately know who you are.

debutante

2011-03-31T20:45:00.001+08:00

tickles here tickles there.
i miss how you tickles me
tickles brought so much laugh
tickles here tickles there.

sahabat dunia akhirat

2011-03-31T20:43:00.001+08:00

truly from the bottom of my heart i think im slipping away from your mind.im slipping away from your side.i dont know why it feels like im not your 'the best ever friend' type.

a note to you

2011-03-31T20:40:00.000+08:00

STOP TORTURING ME.

why are you doing this to me?what have i ever done to you for me to be tortured this way?

jangan -.-

2011-03-30T01:57:00.000+08:00

i don't want to be the girl that you would fall in love with.

we may better be just friends,dude.seriously.i dont have the passion to just fall in love with anyone right now.keeping a heart of mine to someone that i had love endlessly would be better.SORRY.

DEACTIVATE

2011-03-28T21:13:00.002+08:00

yeah fb-hookers aku dh deactivate fb aku.untuk berapa lama.aku pun tak pasti.smpai aku jumpa harga diri aku kembali mungkin.mungkin lah.mungkin aku x kan pernah jumpa lagi dh harga diri tu.hmm.smpai aku dh boleh berdiri dengan penuh confident semula.yeaa itu yg pasti.

'u please jgn pergi' - xde sape pun yg tau betapa gembiranya terujanya hati untuk menerima perkhabaran itu dr org yg pling disayangi.tetapi.hmm aku dh cakap banyak kali aku x pernah pergi..tapi kali nh aku mungkin pergi buat seketika.aku letih aku penat aku sedih.hmm..kau x kan pernah berubah. 'i tgh try nh youu.i tauuuuu' hmm try tapi setiap malam minggu,setiap minggu kau dipenuhi oleh 'itu'.berubah apakah itu.try apekah itu.hmm.entahla.letih aku memikirkan orang yg tak memikirkan aku.hmm.mungkin ada.tp sekelumit cuma.haihh.achi achi kenapalaaa kau mcm nh.

study yeah.exam final semakin mengucapkan hello.matrix semakin mengucapkan goodbye dh mcm lagu baru shontelle pulak,say hello to goodbye :') sangat sedih lyrics die.hmm kalau lah aku sekuat itu kan.alangkah indah dunia time tu.huu.study achi study.you can do it love.hee yg patah tumbuh yang hilang berganti. tapi kau xde pengganti yg boleh ganti kot..

when you are you,when you have changed,come find me back.you know i will always be there for you.even when you're not aware of it.im there.always there never had gone anywhere.cepat berubah k sayang.insyaALLAH i will wait fr you <3

shrettt shrettttttt

2011-03-27T01:52:00.000+08:00

ya Allah ya Tuhanku x pernah sekali pun aku merasa x tenang seperti nh.haihh.kenapaa nh?kenapa semua nh jadi nh?tolongnlah hilangkan je lah ingtan aku.x sggp aku nk melalui sakit perit semua ini lagi..hidup,kenapa kau susah?tolong lah jd senang buat aku.

memperguna dan digunakan.

2011-03-27T00:32:00.000+08:00

aha aku tau aku slalu cakap ayat nh.aku selalu ckp aku give up.tp sbenarnye aku x pernah pun give up.and today aku rasa aku dh betul2 fcuked up.mistreat as 5years old child.what a bullshit.sumpah bullshit.cukup2 lah kongkong aku.letih tau x.

and kau.haa aku dh cukup letih dh.just because kau tau aku will always be there fr you.you take me for granted AGAIN.tahniah.letih la mcam nh semua nk mempergunakan and aku always digunakan.haihh LETIH tau x.

and hell yeah aku marah aku tengah marah gile babi punya.menyirap nyirap dh darah aku nh haaa.cukup laaaah buat aku rasa macam nh.haa aku nk tuka num aku nk tuka diri aku aku nk tukar everything.

L - I - F - E

2011-03-24T00:07:00.000+08:00

2009 <3

sumpah rindu that year.the best year ever.maybe sebab in that year aku kenal kau.aku jumpa kau.tapi somehow that year tu jugak lah aku sangatlah closest with all my friends.last year of schooling.sumpah rindu.sangat rindu.sekarang life mcm shit.yeah shit.too much pressure.too much tension.hate it.i miss 2009.i miss all th ethings that happened in 2009.i miss everything that occur in 2009.i miss i miss i miss everything.i miss you.i miss us.i miss we.i miss all of us.i miss everything.i miss my life.how i wish i could get that old life of mine back.

sakit

2011-03-22T02:17:00.000+08:00

sebulan dh berlalu kesakitan hati makin lama makin kurang smpai dh x da rasa apa2 mungkin.harapnya begitu..

badan mcmfuck sorry suka mencarut mmg suka inilah diri saya.mencarut sana sni.babi sana sini.sorry..sakit sakit sakit.sebulan dh x blh nk mkn.mkn pun takat bg energy bukan sbb lapa.haihh.sakit sana sini.benci pulak.ke doktor?sumpah malas.mmg malas lah kan.nk mengadap akak2 nurse kerajaan nh mcm fuck.diorg suka marah2.benci aku.tunggulah aku balik seremban dilayan bak puteri kt hospital mak aku kerja tu nnti.bru syok

oh rmbut makin pendek.jangan risau bakal dipendekkan lagi sbb benci tgk keletah rmbut yg suka buat hal die sendiri x mendgr cakap sikat.sikat belah sini pegi belah sana.hmm bakal ku potong lagi.sabar ye cik rmbut.oh aah mmg agak hodoh tp nk buat mcm mne kan.biasalah dh salah potong x blh nk buat apa dah.xpelah rmbut je pun so wtf.biar ja lah..

oh hati makin ok hr demi hr.jangan risau perasaan sayang makin pudar hari demi hari bukan dipinta bukan dipujuk untuk jd begitu tapi sebab nya kau sendiri.kata nk berubah tp effortnye langsung x ada 0% aha.suka hati kau lah.x dan den nk amek kesah lagi..hidup ekau ekau lah bontukkan eden xdo maso nk tolong laie dah...

badan makin kurus oleh beberapa orang yg stkt nh den buleh cayo la.tu lah mmg syok dpt jd kurus nh tapi kurus x sehat.kesian pulak den tgk ekau nh badan..hmm..maaflah ye sayang bukan i x nk bg u energy tp entah entah u sakit nh babyyy(badan sndri kene manjakan jugak).sory okay baby nti bie ubatkan.yeaa i love you sayangg..

untitled

2011-03-05T23:48:00.002+08:00

i have no story to tell anymore.what goes around with my life is just those boring stuff.that i tend to repeat the same routine the same thing each and every day..

it had been 2 weeks now since we break up.yeah i admit i misses you.much.so much.but what can i do.you dont try hard to get me back but then you gave me a song entitled 'two is better than one'.you feel that.prove it.crawl back to me.come back to me.beg for my mercy.beg for forgiveness.leave all those nasty life you had behind.but still im just the shadow behind that nasty life youre having.i know where i stand.so stop torturing me.stop all these tortures to my heart.i cant take it anymore.its either you want me or just please.leave me alone..leave me when i still can not suffer much.well bullshit.yeah that a lie.i still suffer badly now or then.but at least im trying to suffer less.you know i love you.yeah i do but the situation now made me this way.made us this way.you make that stuff your number one priority and not me when to me you are my number one..maybe i was stupid.or maybe i was wrong.or maybe i was just blind in love.come back to me if you think that you do.you want.you crave for me..you need me more than you need those things.you said sometimes things dont go well like what we planned.hmm think again.why it dont go well..think rationally think wisely.after all..we're in a serious relationship.not some kiddos lovebirds.think of what we had gone through together.think think and think.think of those things we did together.you want them to just go away like that?you want it to end?think of all the promises.

think of your life.your future.you know how your past life were.do you want to feel that way again?do you want to live your life like that again?after what you had now?think! think of 'their'(you know who) live and compares to your life.see how high youve made so far compare to them.working in cyber cafe.same age but not pursuing their studies.do you want to end up being them?dont you want to live your future?do you want to gave everything now?well you might not see it but from how i see youre obsessed youre addicted which will only ruin your life.not now maybe but sooner or later it will.if you dont think to do it fr me at least think about your family.think that you need to support them.think of your mom.think of your late father.you want to be him?sorry maybe im too harsh but you have to face the truth..think of your sisters.think sayang you are their only brother only you and your brother..you want adeeb to take the resposibility while you still with your carefree life?i know i dont have the 'hak' to tell you this.but as one of the person you loved the most,once.please think about your family.i dont care if you dont think a hell fuck about me.but please do think about your resposibility.maybe thats what made you so stressed about.but please take note.you have me.you had me.im not your girlfriend only when you're happy.i want to be there for sadness and for happiness,when youre healthy and when youre sick.when youre in trouble or out of it.i want to be there always for you.i am but you always didnt see me.okay maybe some things you cant share with me but at least not that...not by taking that..not by ruining your own life biee..no..not by ruining your own future sayang..please sayang its not too late for anything.never..have your life back..have a precious one.the one you will never regret in the future.the one you will be proud of to tell bedtime stories to your kids.all those legends you do now..not those regrets yangg..

sayangg..im sorry i care for you too much than to be asked for.thats my weakness i care too much..and if i ever did something wrong to you.forgive me.youre the best i ever had.but it seems that i barely even know you these days.im confused is that i really dont know you or youve changed.i guess its my fault to never really know you..i gave my all to you.i gave everything.i put my life on risks several time for you..im not begging you to come back but please think.youre young i know.young with hard boiled blood..trying new stuffs.its okay to try once.but to keep doing the same mistakes.i love you sayang.always did.never did once my feelings fade away.even we're not together anymore.all i dream each and every night is you.yeahh you..but i keep telling myself i am strong i can do this and that without youand for that im trying.because you wouldnt come back to me.you wouldnt do anything to get me back.i know your reason 'youre not good enough for me' then if you think so.try to be the one.try to be the good enough for me person.cause you know i'd love you all along.no matter how bad the condition are.im here with you.always.but it came to that part where you said i keep digging and digging about you.im interuppting too much in your life.im unaware of it.but correction..i didnt dug anything up.they popped up in front of my eyes,your behaviour,your way of talking.no one ever did told me this and that.but you did.you make it clear for me about all things.no one but you.i swear its true.and i didnt add up all of your friends but they did..and when theyre your friends i think that its ok for me to be friend with them as well.just to keep your good name.and alhamdulilah i did.but you dont feel the same way.but i guess this is the thing you want.hmm..well it is your life.your own life..

you have the brain and the looks right.aha.no im serious you have the brain so make use of it.think.compare.learn and think.how does it benefits you in some other way?waste of money.damaging your brain cell which you still need to use them for your future undertakings.think..compare how your life could be..i know 'them' very well as i grow up with them since i was a lil girl.im the one who sees them how they are being brought up.i know them..i know them better than you do..and i know you better than they did..

yes you.i know you better..i know you better than any of your closest friend ever did...

btw,remember when you tickled me so maaaaaanyyy times over and over just to hear my weird laugh..yeah i miss that.remember when we were sitting on the beach that new year's night?and how we sang together..laughing together?remember the first time we met?remember the first thing of everything we did together?remember me?remember us?i just want to tell you i miss each and every seconds of it..do you remember?do you miss them??i know i do..

truth beneath that is hidden

2011-02-23T12:45:00.001+08:00

yeaahh i keep it to myself.i keep it real close to myself.those after break-up's dilemma.i keep it tight.i dont want it to show cause im trying to be strong.when i know im not.well everything is worth trying..but leaving you i dont know.they say you're making excuses for me to leave you.and thats what hurts so bad.i keep telling myself that im strong when i know im about to break down and cry.and everytime i did it turns out i didnt had a single tear i was hurt much.hurt by your hurtful words.youre words that make me fell apart.i want to be strong for you because you're not fr me.i want to take care of you because you're not taking care of me.i became what i am today because of you.i want you to open up your eyes a little a little that was too much to be asked for.i strted to ... because i love you saying dont,i love doing all the things that you will be mad fr and strt to act like my boyfriend.im tired of being your boyfriend.i want to be your girlfriend.can't you see?maybe what i ask was too much for you.and hell yeah we ended up breaking up..breaking up all we had before.i admit i cant move on.maybe i dont want to.i love you still.forever and always.change for good.i'll be here for you always.tell me im pathetic but im in love.tell me i stupid but sorry im in love.love that hurts me much till im numb..numb to all the pain you caused.they keep telling me you're coming back but i dont want that..i dont want hope.im tired of hoping this and that..i missed you.those cuddles those laughter..those pampering..those kisses..those moments.i cant get it back can't i?

-.-'

2011-02-22T23:03:00.000+08:00

aku rindu kau lah bahlul.ish..dhla chi dh lepas tu lepas je la.

grenade

2011-02-22T17:22:00.000+08:00

Did I disappoint you or let you down?

Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?

'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,

Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.

So I took what's mine by eternal right.

Took your soul out into the night.

It may be over but it won't stop there,

I am here for you if you'd only care.

You touched my heart you touched my soul.

You changed my life and all my goals.

And love is blind and that I knew when,

My heart was blinded by you.

I've kissed your lips and held your hand.

Shared your dreams and shared your bed.

I know you well, I know your smell.

I've been addicted to you.

[x2]

Goodbye my lover.

Goodbye my friend.

You have been the one.

You have been the one for me.

I am a dreamer and when I wake,

You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.

And as you move on, remember me,

Remember us and all we used to be

I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.

I've watched you sleeping for a while.

I'd be the father of your child.

I'd spend a lifetime with you.

I know your fears and you know mine.

We've had our doubts but now we're fine,

And I love you, I swear that's true.

I cannot live without you.

[x2]

Goodbye my lover.

Goodbye my friend.

You have been the one.

You have been the one for me.

And I still hold your hand in mine.

In mine when I'm asleep.

And I will bare my soul in time,

When I'm kneeling at your feet.

Goodbye my lover.

Goodbye my friend.

You have been the one.

You have been the one for me.

I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.

I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.

I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.

I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.

kau nk tau something?ayat kau.yeah ayat kau..kau buat aku rasa srba salah..kau buat aku dlm dunia yang aku x pernah jumpa sebelum nh.kau buat aku rasa mcm aku dipukul dengan batu bertalu-talu.yeaa ingt x kau prnh tny?kalau sekali dua kene hentam dgn batu x skit.tp kalau berkali kali di tempat yang sama parah.sakit pedih.'lepas nh you x payah tny apa i buat.dgn siapa i kawan dgn siapa i lepak.semua pun you tau kan.korek korek.tp ingt you..semua bendaa dalam dunia nh.semuaaaa.ada hadnya' bukan ke sepatutnya aku yg bg kau ayat tu?aku cnfused.x apalah.lepas nh xada sapa yang akan kongkong hidup kau.btw aku x kongkong kau..kau buat salah.pernah aku marah aku bg ayat terbaik punye?x pernah.aku maafkan kau.bukan sekali dua tp berkali-kali.tp sayang,kau x pernah nmpk semua tu.mungkin salah aku sbb cntrol hidup kau.yeah hidup kau.aku xde hak.sorry.mungkin hidup kau akan lebih bahagia xada aku dlm kamus hidup kau kan?hmm.maafkan aku.sangat sangat maafkan.jgn risau..aku x mengungkit..kau akan always jd mungkin bukan yg first.tp always yang last dalam hati kecai aku nh..berubahlah.bende tu semua x bawak kau ke mana.membazir duit kau je.ingat mak ingt adik adik kau..diorg perlukan kau..kau mmg x pernah sygkan aku mcm mana aku sayangkan kau.kau lagi sayang kebahagiaan sementara kau tu.sebab tu kau pilih dia dr aku.baru aku tau kt mana aku berdiri skrg.redah tinggi langit kat dunia nh..now i know..kau x jahat..sumpah aku x pernah merasakan kau jahat..kau x seorang dalam dunia nh.kau ada aku tp kau x nampak..yeahh you..I WERE ALWAYS THERE FOR YOU.

black black black and blue beat me till im numb tell the devil i said hey when you get back to where you from..

thanks brother

2011-02-18T01:16:00.000+08:00

you've been such a really good brother to me.even my own brother dont treat me quite well like you do.btw,bnyak salah english -.-' nk betulkan but..hmm.thanks for the past 3 semester i had with you.thanks for the house i've been using.thanks for those happy moments i cant forget,those advises and all those words that build me up.hmm.i surely wont have anyone to argue with after this.yeah jealousy does kill.i dont think i will be this close to you at first.too close to cause jealousy.but seriously,youre a good brother.i do hope i had one just like you.and when i did had one jealousy kills all.thanks for all the new words.sk?bear in mind,you'll always be my brother,that is one year older than me *buat mata dengan sapa lagi aku nk ngadu lepas nikk?

ikhlas

2011-02-13T01:25:00.000+08:00

hmm terasa hari nh nk mencoretkan nukilan hati.

tau x korang disaat si kawan berjuang mempertahankan hati seorg kawan yang lain,demi persahabatan @ sisters yg terbina sekian lama,dan seorang lagi si polan yg penuh kekesalan,segan katanya,hmm seorang hati lagi berasa terluka.terluka bukan apa.terluka kerana menjadi mangsa.hmm dengan keterlukaan itu,si hati penat,letih,hati nk melupakan,hati putus asa.apa yang hati mau,tidur,tidur yang pnjng tiada kerisauan.20 biji panadol menjadi mangsa,mangsa si hati.haih hati.jangan lah jadi bodoh..x bukan bodoh.hati nk menunjuk.hati nk tunjuk.hati dh penat.korang faham x hati nh?faham x?tolong la faham..

mcm mana nk teruskan kisah nh.hati kena kuat.tp hati dh letih..taakk.hati kena kuat.hati kena kuat untuk hati yang satu lagi..

rindu.hati rindu hati yg lagi satu.hati rindu nk gelak ketawa dgn hati yg lagi satu.hati rindu dgn hati itu.

hati..bersabarlah..

ZZzzzZZ

2011-02-06T16:32:00.000+08:00

semua post kau buat hati aku terasa bagaikan disentap ditoreh.haa mcm mne tu?hati..aku tau kau sakit tapi maafkan aku kerana secebis lagi hati ini rindu.

sejenak di PD

2011-01-20T23:51:00.001+08:00

tibatiba merasakan smlm bru betol betol bestfriend keluar.aha sebabnye duit mmg saving gila gilaa.and share.

blalang nk keluar pny pasal sanggup kemas rumah bersih2 terus dpt duit minyak yg almost full.lepas lah pergi balik pd 4 5 kali.aha

bed and achi.saving duit drpd lepak kelmarin.aha.ade la dalam rm20.makan saving saving.

dilla belanja air kelapa :)

aha.this is the first time we did this i guess.with belalang of course.kalau dgn SFL dh bnyk kali kot.aha.thanks belalang for following.happy sgt.lepas nh jum kite g mndi kt ulu bendul pula.aha ;DD

you were right

2011-01-20T23:27:00.000+08:00

i am nowhere near perfect.i am a bitch with whom accidentally had this very stink mouth.someone told me if someone talks bad or 'drop' you,all you have to do is get a way to punch them back to their face by doing the same.i had those blue moments where people always downsize me and i've had enough.yeahh its kinda fun doing the same thing back to you.yeaahh its a relieve that now i can stand up for myself.even if it hurts you.im sorry that i hurt you.but i hurt a lot before because your loved ones.now i guess its just me paying back old times sake or more likely im having fun.as you said before you had your own way to have fun.okay dont blame me but this is mine.maybe you were right we should just do our own things.you take care of yours and i'll take care mine.maybe thats the only way for me to stop hurting you.i know i did.well everyone makes mistakes you did yours too.so maybe this is a goodbye?

have you ever?

2010-12-20T13:53:00.000+08:00

have you ever feel like what im having.sorry but i have this uncontrolled anger towards one of my best friends,my SFL.too bad.i cant control this annoyed feeling im having.no one would ever understand not even me.i know i love you but somehow when we are together for 24/7 this uneasy feeling came.i cant push it away.ive tried.believe me i did.but it just shows up whenever and always lately.it started long ago but seriously i would have not acted if i realized.swear.but sorry it hurts you it hurts me too to have and treat you that bad.no one would know.not even the other sisters could not understand.it happened to them before.if only i could tell you what this feeling is.sorry.

kawan

2010-12-17T16:47:00.001+08:00

aku dh kena pukau.sory

sy ada seorang kawan..

2010-12-06T12:52:00.003+08:00

pada suatu masa dahulu di jaya jusco seremban 2 tersebutlah alkisah kami..ahaha..

achi ; wehhh sape mamat hensem tuuu?? *pdhl nmpk belakang je

teng ; maanaaaaa..

achi ; tuu yg tgh menari2 kt robot tuu..

teng ; aahhh hensemmm laaaaa.aha

then biasala nmpk mamat hensem je suka.but then xde la semangat sgt.aha.jln jln lagi dgn cik teng..tiba tibaaa..

achi ; weh die kawan dgn zul laaa.

teng ; zul manaaaaaa.??

achi ; alaaaa zul yg tuu laa...nk text zul la.ahaah

achi ; "zul..kau kt jj eh?"

zul ; "aah asal?"

baru je nk reply msg si zul nh tadi then nmpk pulak mereka mereka berada di depan sy.gullpp..tu diaaa mamat hensem tu..ahah.

achi ; weh zull..hoii

zul ; haaaa.asal kau msg aku?

achi ; xde ape nmpk kau td.aha *pndang ke arah si mamat hensem yg bersama seorg budak kecil..hulurkan tgn untuk disalam (i love kids)aha.tp x disambut

si mamat hensem ; die nh sombong sikit..

achi ; oh xpe. *maluu..teng jum la.

teng ; jum..

achi ; wehhhhh henseeemmmmnyeee dieeeee.ahahaa

teng ; aah dohhh henseeemmmmm..

achi ; *alamak teng dh suka.ahaha backoff backoff..kalau teng dh suka cnfirm blh dpt pny.aha..weh jum kim slm kt die nk?ahahaa

teng ; jom!

achi ; "zul..kwn aku kim slm kt kwn kau yg pkai bju kaler biru td.ahah erkk aku pun kim slm sekali laa.ahah"

zul ; ok.

sedang sy menunggu mama di depan pintu jj tu tiba2 mereka lalu lagii..

zul ; HAA WEH..DORANG KIM SALAM DKT KAU TD.AKU LUPA NAK CAKAP

achi and teng ; pffttt *malu lah bodohh..

selepas tu haha agaakkk keraapp laa sy bed teng ke jj.semata2 nk tgk si mamat hensem tuu..hensemm wehh..bed teng dan sy mmg suka lah tgk die.tp die buka kenal kami pun.aha.kitorg je slalu stalk2 die.aha.tp actually yg btl2 pling semangat suka die sy la.tp x de la tunjuk kan..maluu.aha.sbb bed and teng dh suka die.so mmg cnfirm slh sorg akan dpt si mamat hensem tu..

satu hari selepas tuition ;

achi ; drop me at jusco eh aunty..nti my mum pick us up there..

maa shan ; okayy..

smpai di jj.weeeehuuuuuuuu he's working.oh yeahhh.tawaf nk dekat 100 juta kali depan die.duduk dkt kerusi dkt blkng tmpt die kerja then stalk stalk.ahah.omg..

achi ; weh die hensem kan.sape nme die?

wan ; oh si mamat hensem.u nk num die x?i minx eh?

achi ; eh wan x nak lahh!

wan ; si mamat hensem!! *actually time nh dh dipanngil nama sbenar.tp akhir cerita nti bru aku bgtau eh sape si mamat hensem nh..

si mamat hensem ; ye?

wan ; die nh comel x?

achi ; erk..babi pny wan

si mamat hensem ; haa comel comel *mlas nk melyn agaknye.

wan ; ahahaha.haa tgk die ckp u comel.aha add la die kt myspace i.crik dlm friends i..nama die $^#$&%$%$$^%@

achi ; aha tgk lah duluu...mlas laaa

balik je rumah terus online.hack kwn si wan cri si %^%^&%$%#@.yesss jumpa! aha..add addd add.tp bila di approve diamm je.aha.sje nk tgk gmbr2 die..bukan apa sgt pun.mmg x la nk dpt kan.si hensem nh ramai peminat weh..pegi sini dgr cerita psl die pegi sana pun sama.aha..so skt minat2 mcm minat si artis je dh la.aha

satu hari bersama cik gaby di seremban.

achi ; by!jum g jj kau hntr aku g tuition eh?

gaby ; bwtpe g jj?

achi ; adelaaa kau ikot je.ahaha

gaby ; haaa ye la.

smpai di jj duduk di kerusi stalk si mamat hensem nh lagi.

achi ; by!tu ah mamat yg aku suka tu.ahaah henseeemm kan?

gaby ; ahaha blh aaa.hensem laaa

achi ; aha aku nk snap gmbr die!

satu hari balik dr sekolah.

achi ; weh mama xde kete ade jum g jj "lunch"?

teng bed ; jum kitorg on je..

achi ; jooommm!

sesampainye di jj..alangkah sedihnye hati..die dh xde di jj daahh.. :( dh berhenti kerjaa.kasihan kan?selepas itu aku pun jrg dh pegi jj.dah x ada penyeri di jj tu.aha.

sepanjng hasil dr stalk2 aku tu ade la bbrp kali kami berbual di myspace.actually aha die cmmt gmbr tp aku x blas sbb cehht cuak wehhh..kang blas nmpk sgt pulak minat.ahah

first picture ; caption sy - nur athira syezlin binti ramli. si mamat hensem cmmnt - "hye name sy #$@^^(^%^$^%$I%*"

AWWWWWWWWWW!!die cmmnt gmbr aku!ahha

second picture ; caption sy - want my lips? be mine. si mamat hensem cmmnt - "im yours"

WWWOOOTTTWWOOOTTTTT!die cmmnt lagikk!oh yeahh..

third picture ; si mamat hensem cmmnt - "hye nak kenal blh?awak nh comel la"

YA ALLAH die cmmnt lgii..

tp disebabkan cmmnt kedua die sgt lah best sy pun cmmnt laa page die.aha "eh im yours?bila kite cpl nh?AHAHA"

dr situ lah perkenalan kami.dr situ kami menjadi fakeboyfriend dan juga fakegirlfriend.aww!

lepas tu mcm dh agak lama berfake fake aku rasa eh mamat nh xnk num aku ke?grrrrrr

selepas 10 juta kali fikir.aha bedal je laaa kasi je num.die nk msg die msg la nk sudahh..bukan apaa puunn kan.xde effect kot.haaaaa so aku pun bg la num aku kt die nh..pehh lepas tu lama gila x online dh.malu pny psl.tp a few days later.. 'tereeetttteereeeeteeerreeetttttt' hp aku ade la bunyi msg msg...haaa num xkenal ttbe ckp hye.ish dah la mlas nk layan nh..aha so aku pun blas tny sape nh?tbe2 die reply 'aih bf sndri pun dh xkenal?' and i was like OMG!!!!!! ahahaa si mamat hensem msg.ahahaah.yeayyy!! tp nk dijadikan cerita tu je lah msg.lepas tu xdo dah msg msg.ahah busy dgn awek2 die kot.so buat bodoh sudahh.aha.then i had my realll boyfriend.ohh please xnk cerita psl si bodoh iini..haaa.okay then break dgn si bodoh ini dlm bulan 8.haa to be exact on merdeka! tp time nh mcm dh strt cmmnting with si mamat hensem balik dah sbb si mamat hensem selalu on9.haaaa rindu rinduan lah knnye.ahaha.masih lagi nk berlakon..aha.okaylaa si mamat hensem pun ok je..layaann..then bila dh break ape lagi smbbung cntrct la! aha.msg si mamat hensem nh.cehht x reply jugakk..nmpk sgt la kali nh pun dkt myspace je laa.aha.bialah.bukan nk sgt pun.sje jeee.thenn ttbe timbul satu ideaa.call die jum?aha.jummmm!!call laahh..

achi ; hye :)

si mamat hensem ; eh hyee *suara mcm x kenal.

achi ; erkk u kenal i x?

si mamat hensem ; kenal lahh

achi ; aha ok sape i?

si mamat hensem ; alaaa you la..

achi ; sapa?nama i?

si mamat hensem ; alaa nama you siti mariam (act tah apa nama tah tp zaman purba pny nama laa)

achi ; ehhh.mana adaaaa..sengal.

si mamat hensem ; ahaha i kenal la.syezlin kan?

achi ; yeahh...lepas tu bla bla bla bla.you tgh lepak ke?opps sory ganggu.aha k lahh byee.saje jee..

si mamat hensem ; aha i xde crdt la.nti i topup i call you k?

achi ; ahaaaa yoolaaaahhhh tuu...byeee

lepas letak tu xde la mengharap pun si mamat hensem nh nak call.ahaha sbb rasa mcm die gebang je lebih time tu.aha cito jo lah nk call..so aku pun syok la tgh online.jpgy amcaptain call.haaa lagilah syok dok borak knekan die.ttbe ade incoming call..tgk la sape.OMG! si mamat hensem call.letak phone si amcaptain.haaaa borak dgn si mamat hensem.gilaa aahh die x gebang weh.aha.die call btl2.haaa.then strt dr situ lah kitorg hari hari lah dok bercinonet texting...ahaaaa.eceeehhh tibe2 lah dh syg2 i love you i love you semua.aha..dh fikir dh cehht lelaki sng jo ekau nk i love you dgn aku..aha.bialah x kemana pun dgn mamat nh..okay la.then eh mcm dh lama sgt pulak msg dgn si mamat hensem nh hari2 around a week jugak laa.then haaaaa tarikh keramat kami! 090909 tarikh kami berjumpa and meet up btl2 as friends(kot).xde dah stalk2.ahah.

start dr situ..kitorg eceehhh mcm btl2 cpl laa weh!gile ahh.slalu dh kua 2 org.tgk wayang lepak laa.aha.raya pun ecehhh bersama weh.sbb time tu bulan puasa..aha.dibwknye sy beraya di rumah rakan karibnye..sy pun sama.wahh..btl la nh kitorg dh together.tp tkut pulak nk cnfirm sbb x ckp apa2.so makin lama makin rapat..ahaaa.

makin lama makin rapat smpai x blh nk dipisahkan lagi..smpai laa skrg :) kalau nk disuruh cerita..smpai esok pun x habis psl si mamat hensem nh.aha

si mamat hensem i've gone through rough days with you and happy times with you..i hope we'll stay together forever and always..i love you si mamat hensem :)

thanks kak aiza :)

2010-12-04T00:37:00.000+08:00

aku act x faham.tp kak aiza menerang kan..hee sy Nur Athira Syezlin Bt Ramli dihadiahi beautiful blogger award because its stated there that this goes to an awesome blog.aha.she thinks my blog is awesome :) alhamdulilahhh

thanks kak aiza :)

awak dah tua lah sayang

2010-11-30T23:45:00.001+08:00

sayaaaa sayyaaaaaannngggg awaaaakkkkk...rindddduuuu aaaawaaaaakkk.but sayang,

you dah tua!

act it was on 17th november but we fought that night..sayang..i love you.

dunia pentas lakonan saya

2010-11-29T19:33:00.000+08:00

yeaa tolong bagi tepukan paling gemuruh buat diri sy.aha.saya lah pelakon paling hebat dalam hidup saya.maaf awak semua hanya watak sampingan yang tolong sy menjayakan lagi watak bodoh sy dalam dunia nh.hmm.aha hati kau sangat rapuh tapi akal terima kasih kerana kau kuat.kau masih boleh berfikir dalam sedar.tolonglah berlakon dengan lebih hebat agar hidup aku akan terus jadi lebih TAK BERMAKNA.terima kasih kepada kalian.kalian kalian yang aku rasa wahhh untungnya ada 'kalian' ini dalam hidup aku.

suke kan kau?

2010-11-29T19:13:00.000+08:00

tahla.kau faham lah ape dalam ati aku.penat pulak asyik meluahkan mengharapkan ade orang nak faham tp sekor manusia pun susah nak faham.bukan susah sgt pun.imagine je ka ade kt tmpt org tu haa.ape susah kau rse la ape die rse.lain la kau heartless kan.tu aku x tau lah nk ckp ape.tp aku haraplah kau faham.mlas aku nk ckp pnjng lebar bermadah selalu pun x guna kalau kau still x faham.

*oh btw,post nh bukan untuk kau.

kau kau kau!aku jeles dengan kau!

2010-11-29T18:17:00.002+08:00

amboi kalau aku bg wall post bukan main sedap kau butakan mata.tapi bila orang lain wall post kau.laju je kau jawab.haa untung lah.bagus sgt perangai kau tu.clapclap

kuliah -.-

2010-11-24T00:35:00.001+08:00

prema ; okay you all ade questions x???

semua ; noooooo

prema ; ade ape2 yang x faham x??

achi ; dok eahhhh mana ada...

*satu kuliah gelak then..

prema ; bahasa apa tu?*looking at everyone without noticing im the one said that.aha..

aha.i had fun doing thisss

kuliah business

sir speedy ; okay bank ada duaaa..perbankan dan bukan perbankan.faham??

semua ; fahaammm

sir speedy ; *looking at me..okay contohnya bank ACHI...achi achi bukak pintuuu..

achi ; -.-' *maluuuuuu

what if?

2010-11-23T23:45:00.001+08:00

tajuk besar hari nh..aha. WHAT IF?

what if aku mati hari nh?
what if i disappeared for a day?would it affect you?
what if i disappeared for a whole week?would it affect you?
what if i x siap kerja hari nh?
what if i msg dia hr nh?
what if aku makan bnyk hari nh?
what if aku x makan hari nh?
what if esok aku ponteng?sbb kerja cikgu amry x siap -.-
what if aku balik minggu nh?
what if aku overnight minggu nh?
what if aku tido je skrg nh?
what if what if what if??

WHAT IF SEMUA NH MENYAKITKAN HATI?ahhhhh makin hari makin gila.

dulu dan sekarang

2010-11-23T00:19:00.000+08:00

ingt x duluu kalau dalam 50 msg kite bercinonet berbalas msg,almost 40 drpd msg tu kite masing2 cakap "i love you" aha.

kalau sekarang..masih x berubah..ahaha.cuma sekarang kiter bermsg x sekerap dulu..aha tp no big deal.masing2 busy dah besar kan.x kan nk bercinonet 24 jam.tu untuk new love birds.aha

ingat x dulu kite selalu bagi ikan makan dkt city park?bersedekah kata you.aha

sekarang dh x jejak city park..kl je skng.xmain aa city park.ahaha tapiiii rinduuuuuuuuuuu

ingt x dulu i suke datang bertenggek dkt tempat u kerja..tp u x kenal i.aha

sekarang..nk bertenggek dah malu sbb makcik u semua dh kenal i..

ingt x dulu u suke buat lawak bodoh and i sentiasa gelakkan you.aha u badut terbaik i

sekarang..masih x berubah.aha.

ingt x dulu kitee selalu berkepit.pegi mana mesti achi dan khai

sekarang nk jumpa pun susah..screw you matriks..

ingat x dulu i selalu ckp i love you more?smpai sekarang pun masih xberubah..i still love you more :)

siapa salah sebenarnya?

2010-11-23T00:06:00.000+08:00

sayang..aku x salahkan kau.jadi jangan lah rasa bersalah.aku lebih menyalahkan diri sendiri.kerana aku seperti mengongkong kau.maafkan lah aku. sebenarnya aku x tahu nak salahkan kau atau aku sendiri.hmm mungkin masing2 ada salah masing2.aku x berhati perut.maafkan lah.aku sayang kau.mungkin terlalu sayang.im disappointed in myself for letting this thing happens.hmm.im disappointed that i treat you unfairly.which i can have lots of friends while you are..hmm..its not that you cant but maybe the situation is wrong.and maybe it seems wrong.i dont know.tp aku serba salah kerana membiarkan kau rasa serba salah dengan tanpa aku tahu siapa salah sebenarnya.hmm.

*hati perempuan mmg zahirnya dicipta lebih sensitive.mudah rauh mudah jatuh..mudah cemburu..

hati

2010-11-21T22:46:00.000+08:00

hati,,kenapa lagi kau?x tenang lagi kah?sudahlaa hati..yg sakit itu mmg pedih.lupakan lah..aku perlukan kau hati.jangan lah begini.maafkan aku sentiasa buat kau merasa sakit.tapi hati..sudahlaaa lupakan lah.bantulah aku..

:( hati..janganlah merajuk lagi...

x faham -.-

2010-11-21T18:33:00.000+08:00

menghabiskan hujung minggu di matriks membuatkan aku sedar something YA ALLAH bosannye dkt sini.aha.aku nak balik.tp..hmm ade lah masalah yang malas aku nk cakap.biarlah yg tau je tau.

SABTU

10 PAGI - suppose bed datang menjemput.tapi haihh xada duit katanya x apalaahh.nk buat mcm mana kan?aha.then setelah bergolek sana sini haaa.cingcingcingggg!! datang idea nak pegi makan dkt kfc sbb selalu nya dh pukul 1 dah habis dah makanan dkt cafe nh.leceh!ahah then kitorg pun pegi mndi then siap2 nk keluar.dah smpai kfc makan pun mcm org gila.aha dilla la gila aku x.aku mkn snack plate je dilla makan dinner plate! aha padanla gemok.aha.then jalan2 la mcm org bohodoh dkt masjid tanah yg sememangnye xde pape nh haaa.then terbehenti la dkt kedai jal dvd haremm nh.ahaha.belilah suster keramas! bed babi kau.kau kata takot la apela tp aku merasakan cerita tu sbenarnya diterbitkan untuk menjadi filem porno.duhhhh -.- sumpah mcm bgg.melayang rm6 aku mcm tu je..LOSER.aahaha then balik tgk lah cerita tu.tp disebabkan bosan..aku pun beralih untuk beronline.online2 tgk cik Teng update status yang agak membuatkan tahap jelesi aku bertambah..ahhhh..bosan.cik khairul tido..penat bekerja..mencari duit untuk anak bini makan.ahaha.then agak2 pukul 10 mlm tu die text katanya di wazer..so skype-ing lah.tp line pulak mcm bgg.mata aku dh besar kecik besar kecik dah time tu..aha.last2 aku geram + xde mood aku pun offline lantas tertido sampailah pagi td..

AHAD

dikejutkan oleh lagu glamourous versi gadis gadis manis gossip girls..ouhh.msg dari cik khairul..okaylah aku pun bercinonet kejap di handphone berbalas msg..lepastu perot dh bernyanyi lagu mariah carey..peehh..lapaaauu..pegilah makan.then basuh bju jadi gadis melayu terakhir jemur pakaian di ampaian bawah sebabnye ampaian bilik aku dh diribohkan oleh aku.aha.then smpai lah skrg aku x buat pape.eh correction dh study economy :) lepas nh nak study maths pulak.business lagi.haaa.bosan bosan..

xde pape kesimpulannya cuti minggu di matriks BOSAN.

memories.please dont come back.

2010-11-21T18:13:00.000+08:00

asal aku kne tagged dkt gmbr nh haa?aku sorg pulak tu..teddy nh mcm pnh nmpk.erkkk..OMG!

a ; waannn!

w ; waddup?

a ; knpe tagged ira dkt teddy tu eh?ira bg eh?

w ; x la.mama bg.ahah

a ; eh bile ira bg eh?ira lupa laa.ira bg ke?

w ; slekeh la die nh.tu bende pling wan syg tau!ahaha.tp sory la tgn dh terpatah x dpt diselamat kan.xpe yg 3 lagi still ada.aha

a ; ahaha paling syg eh?awww thanks :)

w ; aha welcome ira :)

x sangka kan?something yang aku rasa x bermakna buat aku jadi something that is very special thing to someone.anyway.thanks for still remembering it although i've took a choice to just forget everything :)

sayang?

2010-11-20T22:45:00.001+08:00

bila tgk gmbr nh kan..aku teringt something.*act x ingt pape pun.sje nk ayat letop.aha..papelaa sje nk cakap aku suka gmbr nh :)

ade banyak bende yang nk aku coretkan di sini.mengenai hidup,"cinta",kawan dan ape2 pun boleh.tp sekarang semuanya terlalu berkecamuk mcm amuk bukak topengnya..mcm orianthi mula bermain clarinet,mcm pussycats dolls mula mengutip sampah di jalan raya.haa haru biru kan?rindu nak bermadah.tp madah x rindu nk ber aku.nantilah bila aku sudah hilang dlm hidup madah mungkin die bru nk realized betapa penting nye aku kot?aha.GILA.madahhh cepat realized..

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pentingkah aku? *ecehhh madah dh strt rindu dah nh.
well the main purpose here.am i that important?to you and to YOU?sudahlah.penat aku bertanya.tapi jawapan kau x pernah dapat memuaskan nafsu bertanya aku.nafsu yang rakus agaknya.sebab itu x pernah puas.salahkan nafsu...bukan aku.

kenapa kau tipu?soalan dah lama ingin aku utarakan..selatan timur mungkin lain kali sahaja..soalan ini juga masih terngiangngiang di telinga.walau telap aku tetapkan untuk melupakan..tapi hati ini masih memberontak ingin tau..kau bosan barangkali?mungkin lah.xmengapalah.semua orang melakukan kesilapan..mungkin hati dah penat untuk berperang lantas mengambil peluang hanya untuk berdiam diri..mungkin..segalanya mungkin..

awk :)

2010-11-20T22:23:00.000+08:00

haha kali nh saya nk bagitahu saya dah maafkan awak :)

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<3 saya pun sayang awak..

auww.awak tahu something?saya pun x blh hidup tnpa awak.

sedih

2010-11-17T03:03:00.000+08:00

sayang semuanya saya dapat tahu sendiri.jangan lah salahkann sesiapaa.please.kasihan L.hmm.sayangg..mmg i marah mmg i sakit hati..tp entahla.entahla entahlaaa.i x tau nk ckp apa.

azam baru

2010-11-14T23:50:00.002+08:00

kau buat aku pun boleh buat!

kata2 sory

2010-11-13T00:44:00.000+08:00

wahai minah.kau mintak maaf.aku x tau nk ckp ape.mungkin sebab calar di hati dh terlalu bnyk dan dalam membuatkan aku benci kau sgt.tunggu lah satu masa aku dah ready nk maafkan kau aku akan.sekarang mungkin belum lagi.torehan dalam hati masih pedih masih dalam.maafkan aku juga.kau selalu cakap 'he's not my type,i have no feelings towards him' tp kenapa die juga yang kau toleh bila kau rasa kau perlukan sesuatu?kau ramai kawan.kau kata kau hotstuff.crilah org lain.terima kasih sebab kau ucapkan kata2 maaf.nantilah aku maafkan.bukan nk berlagak.tp buat apa aku ckp aku maafkan sedangkan hati mulut mata tangan semua masih mencaci kau.hipokrit namanya.sedangkan kata2 maaf kau juga masih aku merasakan ada konspirasi disebaliknya.tp aku fikir pros dan kontra.bagusla kalau kau betul2 maksudkan apa yang kau katakan dekat facebook tu.kau x lah se heartless yang kau katakan.masih ada sifat indah dalam diri kau.walau secebis bg aku tp cukuplah untuk buang sdikit perasaan benci.xperlu aku nk sebot nama.kau tahu sapa kau.kalau kau bukak blog aku,kau baca,nasiblah x baca sudahla.x memberi kesan dalam hidup aku.

jiwang -.- tp indah.

2010-11-09T18:16:00.003+08:00

sorry buat mama

2010-10-15T23:19:00.001+08:00

i did something which im not proud of.i dont know what to say.but from the bottom of my heart maa,im sorry.i didnt made you proud.i lost your trust.i lose everything in a split second.im sorry maa.its all that i could say.im sorry and im sorry.im truly sorry.i didnt planned for this to happened but i guess HE wants to show you whats happening and what am i doing.haihh.im truly dont know how to say.but im sorry.i really do.i know my sorry seems like just a simple word for you but im sorry.i really do meant what i've just said.im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry.i really do.i didnt know things would be like this.but im sorry. I AM SORRY MAA ;(

cuti cuti 1 Malaysia

2010-10-12T10:55:00.001+08:00

yeaayyyyyyy on my semester break,our family will go on a holiday in Johor.desaru i guess.yeayyy :) really looking forward to it.bayangkan lah last pergi bercuti masa i was in standard 3.haha lamaaaaaaaaa gilaaaa kan?yeayy!!!!!

current mood ; sangat happy!

antibiotik

2010-10-11T19:44:00.000+08:00

me ; maa.da brp lame mama x suntik suntik org?
mama ; errr quite some times.da 20 tahun dhh.hhahahahahah(gelak setan)
me ; erk? 0.0'

haha doc bg keluar awal sbb mama diberi kepercayaan untuk menyuntikkan ubat ke dalam body sy.wuu.aiyoo.xpe maa profesional nurse she can do it.hmm.takut weh.ahaha..tp x pela at least dpt keluar and be back home.esok maybe balik malacca sekejap amek muet test.gaaaahhhhh takut..

windmill

2010-10-10T17:20:00.001+08:00

mama ; "ya jom pegi mkn kt windmill ajak mak khai sume dgn khai"
me ; "hah?err ok?"

then we went to windmill.memaa, and mak cik khairul,cik khairul and adik cik khairul.marina :) wowww..mkn satu family.hhahaa and for the 2nd since monday something does goes in tumbling in my mouth.and go straight to my stomache!haha.mksd bu 2nd time mkn laaaa.heee.

aminnn bile mama dah ajak mak khai keluar mkn and all.wow i feel something special..huuuu.aminnn hrp hrp :) alhamdulilah!

hospital

2010-10-10T00:03:00.000+08:00

okay dah 3 hari aku admitted kat kpj nh.hmm.and alhamdulilah dah makin sehat..rindddduuuuuuu nakkk bloggg...

dah almost seminggu aku x makan tp badan ttp gemuk sbb masuk air ubat nh.haihhh...

xleh tgk aku nk kurus sikit.haha.

doctor cakap its because urinary track infection or dlm bhs melayu kencing kotor

bukan sbb kencing bla bla bla x basuh bla bla bla ehh

but it can effect anyone.just this time it got me

unlucky me

bosan weh tinggl sorg2 but im quite happy when cik khairul,lobak,jimmy,dilla,kecik,salad,mayat datang :)

kinda lightens up my life

kinda *buat muka.hahaha

LOL.lots of love

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x habis2 lagi cerita kau nh perempuan?

dah lepas kau mengadu kt bf aku kau demam skarang kau ajak die pegi swimming pulak?

haihhhhh..ape masalah kau act ha sial sial?

x cukup dgn dua sial 47 kali sial pun aku sanggup bagi dkt kau lah betina sundal.

kalau dahh sundal tu ttp sundal jugakk kan?

biasalah sundal.mna blh ckp baik2.ckp sume nk kne maki maki bru nak paham.

puki lancau jangan kcau hidup aku lah sial babi,

...

2010-10-04T17:25:00.002+08:00

i hate fever -.-

pull and bear

2010-10-03T02:47:00.000+08:00

saya rindu si pemilik baju ini <3

bagi

2010-10-02T22:18:00.002+08:00

sy nak give it all up boleh? :( penatlah

syurga :)

2010-10-02T11:36:00.002+08:00

sape x kenal datin nh mmg bwak nahas.haha.

well shes the one who kept me 9months and 2days in her belly..

raised me up until i am nearly 19 years old seeing and living this cruel world.

granted all my wish..which i seem to not to appreciate much..and keep granting more

well shes my mom!super duper cool mom.

the sporting ever,the coolest,the prettiest*tgk anak la kan,and all the the cool word.

sy rindu mak sy

being apart makes me appreciate her more.

talk to her over the phone like twice a day.

sumpah x tipu.

but when im home i'll ignore her to be with my friends.hmm bad kan?haihh..

but to my mom i wish she knew this blog..eh ehhh she didnt knew.phewww.if she knew she'll korek all of my secrets.haha

i wish.i just wish she would know how much i love her.

susahnye nk ckp sorry kan?dh bnyk buat salah punn haihhh susaaahhh sgt nk ckp.

i guess sorry is the hardest word ever!esp to those that are closed..

maa...i love you.i wish you knew.

i wish i could show you how much i love you.

i love you this MUCH! lagi banyak actually.

haha.

final -.-

2010-10-02T00:41:00.001+08:00

final semakin menghampiri.haihh.
mengantuk makin menjadi-jadi
mlas merajai diri
ape nk jd nh? -.-'

2010-09-30T20:00:00.001+08:00

nak tau kenapa i put up her picture?its because oh damn I MISS HER so much

she's my cousin.my closest one!

the one who'll remember every single thing i told her.haha.

so mcm mne eh?she in jeddah right now and i hardly can see her even if she was in malacca..

and now that she is in jeddah it made it much more harder.haaa

thank God there's Facebook.we communicate there like every day.without i know whats the time diff.haha.its okay mim..u'll get through these rough times in your life :)

remember u faced thing that is much more tougher than this.

i know you cani know you surely can!

pray a lot.for me and for you :)

i love you.

istimewa ^.^

2010-09-30T15:09:00.000+08:00

sehebat mane pun perempuan perempuan di luar tu.
xde sorang yg dpt tandingi kehebatan sy.
nk tau sebab ape?
sebab sy istimewa.
bukan pada semua.
cukup jika hanya pada pandangan awak.
nk tau sebab ape?
sebab awak istimewa pada saya.
dan cubalah seramai mana pun tidak mungkin seorg pun dpt tandingi awak.
and this post goes to you :)

perfect!

2010-09-28T19:32:00.007+08:00

ok aku bru bce td..and this is what i have to say.if all of this is sum up to let say 10.and khai did almost 5/6/7 out of it..haihhh and i keep complaining that he is that and he is this.compared to me.ape je yg i had done for him?hmm complaining merungut i guess?haihhhh..so stupid of me -.-

OMG.KENAPA AKU X SEDAR SELAMA NH??

dekat

2010-09-28T17:43:00.002+08:00

I read your ~~diary~~
And it said
That you weren't in love with me (in love with me)
And you're leavin'
And I wished that I didn't see (I didn't see)
That you fell in love with him (him, him)

I-I read your diary (Tino, d-d-d-diary)

I saw a book with lock and key right next to your name
I-I-I couldn't help myself 'cause things ain't just been the same (Uh-Oh)
Can you please tell me, 'cause this so insane
My heart is bleedin', paper cuts from readin' (readin')

Page 1
Says that your fallin' in and outta love
Page 2
Says all the things I do just ain't enough
Page 3
No I couldn't see
Page 3 says you don't know how to explain it to me

But I read your diary
And it said
That you weren't in love with me (in love with me)
And you're leavin'
And you wished that I didn't see (I didn't see)
That you fell in love with him (him, him)

But I read your ~~diary~~
Oh oh
Diary
Oh Oh
Diary
Oh oh
Diary
Oh oh oh

I turned the page and see a ~~picture~~ of you and ~~him~~
Noo noo noo
That was the night you told me you where out with your friends
And now I know that my kiss was just a second

My heart is bleedin', paper cuts from readin' (from readin')

Page 4
Says your addicted to sexting him every night
Page 5
Has all the reason you know that this isn't right
Page 6
I can't handle this, I feel just like JT wanna cry me a river

'Cause I read your ~~diary~~
And it said
That you weren't in love with me (in love with me)
And you're leavin'
And I wished that I didn't see (I didn't see)
That you fell in love with him (him, him)

But I read your diary
Oh oh
Diary
Oh Oh
Diary
Oh oh
Diary
Oh oh oh

Lets make a list
Broken promises
How you always told me you loved me right after every kiss
You always talked about all them other chicks
And now it's obvious that we know who the real b*tch is

B*tch is....B-B-B*tch is...B*tch

I-I-I-I read your ~~diary d-d-d-diary~~
I read your diary
And it said
That you weren't in love with me (in love with me)
And you're leavin'
And you wished that I didn't see (I didn't see)
That you fell in love with him (him, him)

But I read your ~~diary~~ (ohoho)
Diary
Diary
I read your diary
D-d-d-diary

kuat.

2010-09-28T17:15:00.000+08:00

semalam,sy lepak dgn kawan sy.die tny mcm mne kalau satu hari nti ade orang yang lagi hensem lagi baik lagi caring datang dekat sy..ape akan jd kepada cik khairul?mcm mana kalau bukan khai yg tingglkan you but you yang tinggalkan khai?hmm.sy jwb 'aaahh x de laaaa i syg khai je.i tau i x kan tinggalkan die'.and then die tny lagi 'mcm mne kalau laki tu layan you mcm mne you nak khai layan you.meaning die syang you lagi bnyk dari khai syg youu.hmm sy jadi speechless di situ.sy nk jwb tp die tegah.die kate we never know what would happen in the future.

tp dalam hati sy sendiri sy kuat sy tau sy xkan blh nk syg org lain mcm mne sy syg cik khairul.hmm.and if something did happened between me and cik khairul.i just might not/maybe fall in love again.hmm.because its hard to find someone who can cherish me like he does.yeahh i know he is a lil bit heartless and alwaaaayssss makes me mad/upset but no one could make me smile like he does.no one ever really knows how to treat me like he did.and if that someone is coming up.i might never be the same again without him.i may not be the same achi like i am now.its hard and its really complicated on how i want to express myself with this feelings i have now.to love again after cik khairul might be the most challenging thing i ever gonna do.i just dont want anyone else's like i want him.no one can really put up to my annoying acts like you do.i dont want anyone else.i just want my MOHAMAD KHAIRUL AQMAL BIN ZAINAL.

rindu ;)

2010-09-28T14:42:00.002+08:00

CURRENTLY AKU RINDU SEMUA INI ;)

ZAINAB MD NOH,RAMLI BABA,AMELIA SYEZLIN,ISMAEL SYEZLIE,NUR IZZATI SYEZLIN,ALIFF DANIAL SYEZLIE,AMIRUL HAIKAL,SYAMIM MUDRIKAH
my old times.but im loving the present
SFL (i invented that) umaraisapisblalang jugak. rindu bfl jugak.tp SFL lagi penting.
my long haired boyfriend.short haired pun LAGILAH rindu.of course he is my cik khairul :)
mr bala :)
sleepovers with sfl.xtidur smpai pagi.gossiping,fitnah-ing.
school times.
seremban
my old life?
time maaa did went for her haj.kesetan-an melanda me and my sfl.haha
my sweet moments with him.
gelak janda -.-
zubaidah
suhana
shuhada
thara
dilla
uuuuummmmmmaaaarrrrr
rais
blalang
gaduh dgn teng.and then nk pujuk buat love letter.HAHA
time bed merajuk sbb i went back home after school with N
pantai poli <3
lepak dkt bistro
mc'd everyday after school
jj everyday.
kl every holiday
loooonnnggg recess at school.
time sekolah hari hari jumpa.and for that hari hari ada cerita.
being kiddos
sy x nak life masa sekolah rendah sy -.- i was damn uglay.haha
movie times dkt kelas 1 hishammuddin time koko
time single?haha shhhhh...
i miss my boyfriends.bold it.friends
my used to be fake boyfriend- khaiyaiyai.now known as khai.
karaoke dgn bedotharadilla.
shopping spree with kak long
lepak dgn sfl usha sume laki yg lalu depan mata.
being crazy.dehhh i am serious now.haha.am i?
being immature
all the tuitions time.cikgu kucai cikgu balaa cikgu suriati
GAAAAAHHHHH..
being my juniors most loved senior.HAHA *perasan
not having any bitch i my relationship.
pegi gig dgn KAMIfamily
SCOUTS CAMPING TIME.jamboree camporee semua laaahhh...
aryanna darwisha
i miss my everything

so i guess i my everything that occurred in my life :) but that doesn't mean i don't love what i have in my present time.sumpah LOVE.but those were the times i did my silly mistakes and from there i learnt on how to be the person who i already am now.u guys too have all those missing moments that u missed right now.right?i know.let it out if you want.its not wrong at all.blogging is fun.

awaaakkkk jugaakk

2010-09-27T02:00:00.001+08:00

sy tau awk mesti cuba untuk faham.xpe sy pun tgh cuba nk faham semua yang berlaku sekarang nh :) hee. sy sayang awaaaakkkk sgt2.muaahhh love you!

*xde kene mengene lagi kot?hahahaaahha!

indahnya dunia

2010-09-27T01:23:00.002+08:00

gedik kan?

aww sy just sangat happy bersamaa awaakk <3

hahahaha.die comel kan? ;DD

my happiness :)

die sangat rakus.HAHA

;)

-.-

HAHA

p/s ; would you care to pray for our happiness till marriage?thank you.aminnn.can you pray for our happiness that will long last and to shuuuuhhhh away all the miseries and shuuuuhhh away all the bitches.haha.

tolong sy.

2010-09-26T23:25:00.002+08:00

awk awk...awk boleh x tolong sy?

tolong jangan gedik sangat dgn bf sy blh x?

hmm..kalau awk x gedik dgn die.die xkan layan awk.

jadi..jangan lahhh gedik2 dgn die.sy ckp elok2 nh.

xdeee pun maki maki awk kan? :) awk sakit,pegi jumpe doktor.bukan jmpe bf sy ;DD

bf sy x blh nk hilangkan 'sakit' awk tuh pun.huu.

xpelaa mungkin awk ketandusan kasih sayang ye.

xpeee..crilah dkt org yg nk bg awk.

dunia nh ada karma ye sayang..

ape yang awk buat sekarang akan jadi balik dekat awak suatu hari nanti bile awak least expect it.

hmm..maybe bukan skrg..maybe bile awk dh kahwin nti.haa..

percayalaahh what goes around comes around..

hee ;) sy x maki awak kan..

sy ckp elok2 selagi sy blh.

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yeayy..smlm pegi beraya ke rumah cik fairul dan juga kak shuttle :) best lah jugak ;DD

so today lobak diarahkan oleh saya untuk menghantar saya pulang ke kolej maktrikulasi melaka.bersama sekali ade cik khairul -.- sesampainye di kolej matrikulasi kami menjemput pula puteri adilla dan puteri amira untuk berhijrah sementara ke dataran pahlawan.hee.jadi kami semua agak sesat mencari arah tujuan ke dataran pahlawan itu.almaklumlah semuanya orang 'KL' ahaha.(seremban je pun) haha setelah berhempas pulas berpeluh liuh(ade ke?) mencari jalan.akhirnya smpai jua kami ke destinasi bajet yang dituju.dataran pahlawan!jadi kami pun terhuyung hayang berjalan ke sana ke mari mencari kedai hotspot tok jalan jalan cari makan.akhirnya kami terhentikan diri kami di sebuah kedai bernama 'FOOD COURT' haha.kami pun mkn mkn.selpas itu dengan pertama kalinya sy menjejakkan kakai ke a'famosa.tempat bersejarah yang selama ini hanya saya tatapi dalam buku sejarah sedari form 1 -.-' ghaha.agak membosankan.sama sahaja seperti mata pelajaran sejarahhh.BORING(dalam nada penggedik cerita MEAN GIRLS)haha.okaylah selepas itu kami pun berjalan tidak tentu hala lagi.dan memulakan perjalanan pulang ke kolej matrikulasi melaka yang dirasakan sekejap sahaja.tidak seperti ketika mahu pergi.haha.walaupun singkat tetapi hari ini amat menyeronokkan..iyelahh merupakan salah satulah hari hari indah bg sy dan cik khairul.*setiap hari bersama cik khairul pun indah indah belaka (buat mata) haha.

saya sayang awak cik khairul :)

1 tahun 17 hari

2010-09-23T13:45:00.003+08:00

oookaaayy this is super duper memalukan tapi nsib baik cik khairul didnt notice and know abt this.haha there's this one time act sje je laaahhh nk tauuuu ape rsenye tny2 soalan mcm kat atas nh.haha

a ; u..u pernah x rse happy gila gilaa and rse mcm nk melompat2 je rse happy tu bila u jmpe someone?

k ; hmm ade kot.knpe?

a ; jmpe sape?

k ; JMPE ATOK.

i was damn nk gelak gila babi tapi tahan je weh...hahaha dr kononye nk jd sweet terus jd lawak.hahaha and then hr tuh ade laa tny lagiii..ookay kali nh kononye nk jd mcm lagu just the way you are...this are some part of it..

But every time she asks me do I look okay
I say
When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

nak tau ape jwpn cik khairul? hahaha

a ; u do i look okay today?

k ; cube u diri jauh sikit

a ; *dgn menahan gelak pergi berdiri jauh sikit.haha

k ; *pandang si a dr hujung rambut smpai hujung kaki beberapa kali.okay laaaa.knpe?

a ; haha xde pape -.-

HAHA.xnak tny soalan2 yg i'll expect something sweet will come out.hahaha

AJAL

2010-09-23T13:36:00.003+08:00

kau tau je kan bila aku marah mcm mne nk buat x marah lepas kau buat aku jadi lagi lagi mrah.HAHA

a ; dah nak sampai ajal sy kot.haha

k ; jangan laa..i x puas lagi hidup dengan u.

a ; haha u mmg x kan prnah puas la hidup dengan i.

k ; u ni..i nak hidup dgn u la.nak kahwin dgn u ad anak dgn u tggl dgn u.hmm..

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a ; rsenye betul lah tu ajal sy dh dekat.

k ; amboii..jgn la ckp mcm tu.dgn sape i nk bermanje2 nti? :(

a ; dgn gf bru la.haha

k ; x kan ad gf bru.sy x kan berhenti menyintai awak :) amboih! *okay yg nh kelakar.haha.

hati sy cepat tersentuh dgn hal hal mcm ini or this is super sweet??

kenapa? -.-

2010-09-22T22:30:00.003+08:00

kenapa manusia x pernah nk menghargai ape yang ada depan mata eh?hmm.salah seorang SFL sy pernah berkata girls dont know what they want and guys dont appreciate what they have.ade ke-BETUL-an nye di sini.hmm.perempuan mmg x akan pernah tau of what they need and guys x akan pernah nk hargai ape yang ada depan mata.tp kt sini im not blaming on the guy side.tp post ini lebih bersifat random.seriously.sape mkn cili die rse biji cili tu.'bila ada depan mata buat bodohh,tp bila xada tercari-cari' and for the second time i heard that word again.not from him but frm him.di sini dh kelihatan dengan sangat jelas kan?hmm.dua manusia berbeza merasakan satu benda yang sama.tapi kenapa bila ada depan mata x nk nmpk sebelum ianya jadi x ada depan mata? -.- bila ada depan mata diam,senyap, tp bila dlm phone amboooiii bukan main rancak lagi.kemain lagi bak kata cik khairul.haha.kenapa nk jd fake?maybe bukanlah fake.dlm phone tuh perangai sbenar tp bile ade depan mata x dikeluarkan perangai yang tu.malu katanya.ada logik juga di situ.okay end of conversation.

kenapa? and kenapa? and kenapa? hmm no one hold the answers to any of probabilities that had been lingering on my head.it lingers and hang in there.do u have the answers?no i assume u dont.why cant you be crystal clear with me?mad at me.go.let it out.think im bullshit?yaw tell me lah.but why do u keep it instead?care for what i feel?thanks..appreciate it much.

AND SUDDENLY WHY DO THE HELL THIS SHIT HAPPENS?

2010-09-22T18:44:00.000+08:00

xpenah aku rse segeram nh laaaahaaaaiiii hissshhhhhh SOHAI!

selamat hari layaaaaaa

2010-09-21T17:26:00.002+08:00

hye guysss.haaaaaa.selamat eid mubarak! heee x la too late its only abt the 12th day of raya.haaa ok lagi lah tu..huhu.so how was ur guys punya raya?mine was superb eventhough dapat SIKIT SANGAT DUIT RAYA.so sad T.T hukhukk tp nak tau smething?x de laaa best sgt just nk ckp hari hari x melekat kat rumah weh.hari hari ade je keluar ade je pegi rumah tu rumah nh.haha best jugak laaa dpt spent time dgn SFL and BFL.huuu tapi lagi best dpt spent time almost hari hari dengan cik khairul tu.huhu..first day raya mcm biasalah raya kt rumah je then balik kampung tapi x best sgt lah because zetie syezlin tiada.kurang ahli keluarga kami seorg.hukhuk.nk buat mcm mne die terpaksa kerja kan.hee.lepas tu raya ke-2 went to belah mama punye siblings laa.konvoi from one house to another.hee.then raya ke-3 jeng jeng jenggg...HAHA.beraya dekat rumah uncle cik khairul..haaaa maluuu sangat sebab semua lah cousin mok cok pok cik die ada.haha.segan..tp terasa special di situ sbb ye lah dah dibawa berjumpa sanak saudara kan.heee :) *blush.haha.then raya ke-4 pulak haaa went out with some SFL.pegi tgk step up 3 pehhhhhhh hensem la kan.i sat with bed.haha confirm bukan mcm tgk wayang lah kan.dah more to tgk konsert.haha.LAME.then raya ke-5 went to cik khairul punya house mates punya rumah.mak aihhh xde lagi jauh ke rumah masing2?haha.xpelaaa adventure dr x penah smpai ke sana dah sampai la.haha.yeayy!then ehh cop cop raya ke 4 tuh kakak saya izzati syezlin dah pulang ke seremban bersama bf sy eh bf die.haha.merangkap second bf sy laaa.HAHA.sory kakak.then pegi karaoke..then lepak shisha..bestt.lepas sangap sy nk mengshisha.hee.raya ke 6 pulakkk bersamaan hari rabu pergi ke rumah rakan2 taulan..haha yg berakhirnya beraya di rumah saya.main main mercun.heee.gmbr semua ada dalam fb.silalah check.hee.xde fb sy?add lahh.cri sendiri.hee.then then khamis tu ingatkan dh nak balik melaka daaaahhh tp kan.haha pemalas yang amat nh x balik pun melaka.hee.last last balik melaka hari ahadnyee.heeee.yes! khamis tu keluar lagi.hahaa.pegi rumah alya and amerr...then mlm tuh tido rumah zubaida hidhir! yesss dpt jumpa baby sayaaa si arryanna darwisha!mamachi rindu chaaaa ok sayang! heee.then esoknye ke rumah dothara..tp thara menangiss T.T jangan lahhh bby...jangan lah nangis..nti kau jumpe kitorg lagi.jangan laaaa mcm tuu.sedih aku rse.ok?dont cry cry sayang ;DD smile! hee..then sbtu sy keluar bersama cik khairul pegi hosp check darah,sbb cik khairul disuspek kene denggi and then tgk movie.resident evil 3d.haha sepal punye cik khairul..die blh gelak gelak dlm movie sbb die ckp muke sy kelakar pakai spec 3d tuhh..mcm robot ke ape tah katanya.sy ckp mcm cyclops.haha.eyhh cool ape! haha *die x sedar muke die pun sama kelakar je.haha.then lepas tuhhh meraban sy cri klinik sbb nk dptkan mc sbb ahadnyer dah nak balik melaka kan?haha.tu je lahh cerita sepanjng raya sy di seremban.hee how abt yours?kongsi lah sme sme :)

si tikus -.-'

2010-09-12T23:48:00.001+08:00

ARGHHHH SAYA BENCI TIKUS.BAJU ZARA TU KAU INGT AKU BELI MURAHMURAH KE SHIT!YG KAU NK GIGIT GIGIT HABIS COMPANG CAMPING BAJU AKU TUH DAH KENAPA?! -.-' GAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!

sy sayang awak

2010-09-12T22:21:00.001+08:00

hye awak.sy sayang awak sangat tauu! ;DD at last i got it!

awk x kan pernah faham sy.

2010-09-12T11:23:00.005+08:00

ke hadapan sahabat yang sangat sangat dirindui dan disayangi,

mungkin lah awak pun x perasan sy dh banyak kali cuba nk impress awk,

tp awk ttp mcm buat x tau,

bukan lah sy lebihkan kekasih sy,tp masalahnye mcm mne sy nk bahagikan bdn sy jadi dua?

mungkin awk pun x tau,sy pun banyak dah terasa dgn awk,

tapi sy x pernah layan awk mcm tutttttt kan,

xpelah sy sayang awk.sy faham awk x ngam dgn kekasih sy,sy dah cuba nk ngamkan tp awk ignore,

sape cakap awk bukan kawan sy?hmm.awk je yang x pernah nk selami sy.

awk selalu ada that 'emo' thing bila awk berckp,jumpa,or ape2 lah yg berkenaan dgn sy.

awk tau betapa sedihnye sy?xkannn..sbb sy x tunjuk.nti kalau sy tunjuk mungkin awk jadi x suka pulak dkt sy.

kawan kawan kekasih sy x kan boleh menjadi sehebat sahabat sahabat kite.

itu sahabat kekasih sy yang hanya kawan sy tp awk?

awk,awk mungkin x faham situasi sy sekarang ini.tetapi tunggulah bila awak sudah mempunyai kekasih.dan kami semua x kenal kekasih awk,dan kekasih awk x se-klik kami,awak mungkin akan faham situasi yang sy hadapi sekarang ini.bukannye sy x cuba nk merapatkan awk..tetapi awk yang selalu melarikan diri.terima kasih awk..

yang LAGILAH terluka,

hati yang parah.

*lagilah x de kene mengene dgn kau,HAHA

setahun?

2010-09-09T13:17:00.004+08:00

SELAMAT ANNIVERSARY MOHAMAD KHAIRUL AQMAL BIN ZAINAL! <3>

setahun dah kite kan sayang?hee.i love you so much.more that you can ever think off.sorry for all the wrong doings i've done to you..and all the misunderstandings that i had.saya sayang awak >.<>

xpe sy ttp tunggu awak..

2010-09-08T01:20:00.002+08:00

pagi td sy pegi kelas dengan hrapan petang nti blh balik cepat.

tp apapun sy buat kelas ttp terasa lambat..

sepatutnye td kelas habis pukul 4 tp cikgu dah awalkan jadi kelas habis pukul 2.

kwn awk msg sy tny esok keluar dgn awak..

sy ckp x tau

die ckp awak keluar dgn sy.die kata awak kata dkt die.

sy pelik.awak x ajak keluar pun?xpelah sy happy sebab awak nk keluar dgn sy

sy rindu awak.awak msg sy.sy reply cepat2 sbb sy semangat msg dgn awak.

tp awak reply lambat lambat -.-' xpelah sy dh biasa

lepas tuh sy hilang sbb sy x de crdt.sy tunggu awak call.tp harapan je lah..

awak x kesah pun sy x reply.

sy balik rumah sy..cepat2 sy pegi tpup.

sy call awak.yeay!!

tp awak jawab acuh x acuh.mcm x nak ckp.. :( jadi sy pun hentikan perbualan..

haihhh.sedihnye sy..sy sorg je yang tauu..terasa mcm x nak call awak lagi dah..

sy tunggu msg dr awak..tp x de.sy hntr msg slmt berbuka puasa..awak reply..

happynyer sy dgr ringtone awak.

tp sama mcm tadi awak reply lambat2..lepas tu awak hilang..

sy agak awak hbis crdt..ye betul lah tekaan sy tu.

sy call awak..sebab rindu sy td x habis lagi..pun same awk angkat phone suara dah mrh2.

hilang rindu sy dkt awak bertukar jd marah..

tp sy diam sbb sy tau awk mmg mcm tu..

xpelah.nti lame2 awak maybe akan angkat calls sy elok2 kot.huuu.sy tunggu.

awak kate nti on9.sy tunggu lagi awak on9.sy picit kaki mak sy tp mate sy dkt laptop tunggu nama awak keluar dkt online friends fb sy..tp x de.xpelaa sy tunggu lagi.

td name awk keluar.YEAYYY!! sy ingat blh sekype dgn awak..dpt tgk muke awk pun jd lah..

tp sy terbce status awak..awk tgh sekype dgn L.terasa sy.awak x ajak sekype.

tp x pelahh.smlm sy dh sekype dgn awak seharian mungkin awk bosan tgk sy hr hr.siapa tahu?

sy fikir x pelah.xkan lah hari2 die nk menatap muke aku.

tapi sy rindu awk.awk tau x?

merungut jeee keje korang -.-'

2010-08-16T13:12:00.002+08:00

korang semua penah ade perasaan mcm nh x bile dgn ex boyfriend korang?

"eihhh bestnye kalau die cm nh cm nh cmnh...kan best if die paham..kan best if die bla bla blaaa"

and bile korg dh break :( korang mesti jumpa someone lagi better dr ex boyfriend korg kan? *kalau jmpe yg lagi worst x tau lah kan?ahaha.and bile korg dh jmpe current boyfriend korang mesti at first korang akan ckp.he's my dream guy he's the one..bla bla blaaa.but bile dh lame..disebabkan korang punye rasa x bersyukur tu..korang akan strt balik merasa --->

"haihhhh..kalau lah die cmnh cmnh cmnh.kalau lah die bla bla blaaa"

hakikatnye korang rse,korang terbaik x fr him?korang pernah terrfikir x maybe he felt the fucking damn same way abt you?mesti x pernahh kan.sbb korang rse korg the best.korang yang terbaik.korang dah bg everything yang KORANG rse terbaik.tp in his shoes?maybe korg laahhhh pling x sempurna.tapi die dh sayangg die terima jugak ketidaksempurnaan korang tuh.so i just want to remind myself and to you guys.stop complaining sbb x ade org blh tahan dgn rungutan korang tuh.even your family pun x blh tahan kan?apetah lagi orang yang belum confirm lagi hak milik kekal korang nh..bersyukur je lah ade orang nak syg korang kan?dr x de?haha.

semua orang x perfect dalam dunia nh.not even YOU.ALLAH je yang perfect.x tau lah kalau korang ade terasa rasa nk jd mcm Die ke kan..wallahualam..tp kat sini i am a girl so im going to defense we girls a bit..kitorg x kan rse sedih kalau you guys x buat kan?so blh x same same ade effort same same buat relationship korang tuh berjaya?mutual understanding sangat perlu okay?xkan selamanya perempuan nk beralah kan?jatuh lah maruah kitorg sebagai perempuan..hee.bg lah kitorg nk jual mahal sikit.korang pun buat buat lah nk beli mahal sikit.at least even if korang buat buat haha hati perempuan kitorg nh terhibur lah sikit.haha terasa ade value di situ :)

2010-08-15T20:37:00.003+08:00

arghhh dh lama x blogging :) since dh ade tumblr.hah dont worry i wont forget you blog sebab even how tumblr did show others how i felt bt nothing compare with telling stories.creating memories reminiscing every unforgettable things.

so i guessed you did read my blog ayte.i just have nthing to say to you..thats all

and to you...whoever you may be..sorry if i did embarrassed you in front of your friend.im just pissed off.see the date of the post.dah lama kan?haha pape lahh we're cool now kan? :) thats okay.huuu.i love you you love me and for now its enough for me.

and now dh setengah jam aku ade depan laptop nh tapi aku ttp x ade ape yang blh nk diperahkan dlm blog nh.haha.nk kata aku sedih..x..happy..x..sengsara?haha lagilah x.but at least aku bersyukur dengan ape je yag aku ade sekarang nh.and thanks for reading!

^_^

2010-08-06T19:08:00.002+08:00

and so i was in kuliah just now.business with mr ra'aid.my kolonel fried chicken lecturer.haha so cuteeee..i didnt gave my 100% focus instead i was observing of everything that is happening around me.ade yang tidur *1 of them would be me if i wasnt doing this stupid observing thing.haha.ade yang tekun sangat study and how i wish i could be like them..ade jugak yang borak2.haha mcm dilla and anis.GHAHA.yg guys haha x nmpk sgt but some of them were sleeping.huhu.tp banyak yang menyalin notes.and i was reading through my messages with him.you know who.hmm..i dont want to talk about him right now,i just wanna talk about my cllge life.haha it had been a while since i havent seen my jodoh.gahaha. the other day i saw him..i was walking quite not far away behind him.well here the story goes..

haha.usually on wednesdays,our class would clash up.im going in into the next class of his and he's going out.so i was a lil bit late for english,i saw him he used the long way to go to the library.sedangkan fro the classs if he used the tangga hujung tuh dh sampai dh library.then i just walk a bit slowly hoping that he would notice but i saw he was kicking the air mcm *aaaahhhhh... understand?haha mcm frust laa x nmpk something then i tgk lah ape yg die tgk.haha ouhhh okay it was my class.ad my classmates dh masuk kelas maybe he didnt see me.hahaha.maybe laa but im quite sure of it.sebab x kan lah die nk amik jalan jauhhhhh sedangkan jalan yg die patut lalu td sumpah dekat gilaa dahh.haha.but the he never did realized that i was behind him.haha.xde jodoh la tu die nk jmpe i.haha.but that monday i saw him and he saw me.he past by me.but nothing happened.GHAHA..kesian FARID :)

we lose what we have best

2010-08-05T14:34:00.003+08:00

life is not always would be on track.fairy tales doesnt always seems beautiful.but the fact is life is a journey.u are responsible of it.you are the one whose gonna colour it.comfort and protection of the highest power is something we should value.and all that you need would surely come.

I LOSE TO HER

to the one i love sorry when trust was not there and replaced by jealousy..i am just a girl after all.i know you love me but the truth that you're hanging out with that girl it makes my nerves go.... haihh u understand right.im not worried about you i am just worry about that trashy.somehow when you treat her like you did i feel like i lose to her.i lose my part as someone you love.I LOSE TO HER.i cant accept it.and that is why i was so mad about..we known each other too well.and i love you too much that it hurts me thinking too much about you.i'd been crying all the time thinking that you were pretending being faithful and not lying to me.someone told me you were just 19 and it made me think.you havent seen enough yet you are still not matured enough yet.but yeahh you love me its just that you dont know how to show.i'll wait for that one day where you learned to show and i'll witnessed it myself and for that one day to come,i'll surely be the most happiest person.

i'd gave up on you.

2010-08-04T10:32:00.003+08:00

luahan hati oh luahan hati.si pembaca blog rasailah kepedihan and kesayuan hati achi nh...

saya give up dgn awak.tp sy sayang awakk..

khairul aqmal hoi.. :( x kan x tau lagi.i should have thought so that NANI OH NANI would be such big problem for us.

NANI kau sial.

life is not like what it seems

2010-08-02T17:01:00.003+08:00

haihhh.problems lately been to much.it wrecks my nerves.and i feel like im going down.the cycles of life makes me sick.i hate being down i hate being prejudiced i hate everything thats happening now.etc ;

love life ; fairy tale no longer exists.someone pinched me and made me realize that real world is not as beautiful as what it may look alike.but i dont want to judge before i am sure of what is happening.but btw,what were you thinking sayang?haihh.to my eyes ur the greatest of all..you killed my trust.

family ; ......................................................................................................................

friends ; things around me are falling apart but with you guys near me.im feeling much better..thanks guys..

every single day i am moody,i am down.i get pissed off easily.of what is happening i cant take it.im too fragile but idc i must be strong again i must be me.come on achi you are not this fragile you are not weak!you are strong you are nur athira syezlin! yes i know!

so fasting is getting nearer.hope on this ramadhan i could be more 'solehah'?aminn insya'Allah i will.getting stuck in malacca for 2 weeks.hmm my outing card is well kept in Puan Madihah's hand.haihhh...its okay i would not want to be home for a this couple weeks.i want to clear out my mind.i want to be free from home.from all the works that been set to burden me.haihh...

2010-07-25T17:28:00.006+08:00

heee genting was the best ever.but there's some problems that occur in the end.haihhh we couldnt find a room to rent! gaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhh.so suck.

the best part is i manage to overcome all my fears towards heights.hahaha.i did ride the solero shot and roller coaster! wohohooo something that i never did in my this minor lifetime.aha.with khai beside holding my hands i felt so tidak takut okay.haha.in fact he's the one who is yelling like hell." mak mak maakkkkkkk!!!nak balikkkkkkkkkkk!!! " hahaha.stupido didooo..parking was like shit full gilaa.from level 16 we had to go to level 11.haha.

so now come the part where all the fun began..masa mula mula sampai tuh kitrg pegi crik makanan.SHIT! makanan sumpah mahal.ahaha.lupe pula atas tuh mmg mahal2 belaka.haha.so lepas makan tuh me and khai pegi naik yg buaian yg pusing pusing tuh..huhu teng and the rest lambat sikit and with their uncivilized manners diorg potong everyone that were waiting and lining up they come to me and khai.haha.this is the first game ever for that day.haha dkt sini dh nmpk khai pnye ketakutan tuh.haha he was yelling all the time.cool lah brado.hahaha.then we wanted to play the go-kart but the line was so panjang.x sanggup den nk menunggu.haha.so i suruh khai baling ring masuk botol if he gets it,the reward was a big bear.he tried so many times but :( naaaahhh he didnt get any..hukhuukkkk.sangat sedih -.-' then we went to the dinosaurland.huuu mcm bgg but khai was shocked when suddenly a dinasour in front of him strt to rawwwrrr.HAHA then we went and play all the games there...sume kelaparan last last melantak mkn dkt kfc.

then nk check in but xde bilik pulakk..haihhh sedihhh turun balik dr genting crik bilik x jumpe jugak then pegi kl pun xde jugak dh takut.haha then balik seremban haaa nh yg x best nye.it is so sucks.gaduhgaduh dgn dilla.grrr.x suka laa weh.haha.but then we're cool :) kesimpulannya genting coolio best

2010-07-23T17:17:00.003+08:00

muhammad khairuddin bin zulkafli

he was supposed to be my guardian angel :) haha.he will always be that person.awww yg nh pun aku rindu.haha sbb die tergolong lm my bestfriends yg suke buat lawak bgg.haha suka bg teka teki jugak :)

muhammad hafiz bin badrulhisham

ooookkaaaaayyyy die nh pn okay jugak.bukan lah bestfriends but a great friend to hang out with.hee apis gemok gelaran die.haha.sbb die gemokk.tgk tuh mcm bpak orang kan?hahaha

dilla,achi,bed

siti zubaidah hidhir

to this gemok of mine,i seriously miss you like hell buddy.huuu.i miss all the stuff that we would blabbers..haha.main gigit smpai lebam.tariktarik rmbut..huuu.sumpah rindu! but hell yeah i met you this morning and i am so glad babayhh.heee.i met you yesterday and the day before.haha.but today was the best sbb kau mcm sial.heee.that sial yg i miss the most.

suka kutuk diri sendiri!

2010-07-23T08:50:00.005+08:00

his name is nazmeer.haha.i just love to tease him.bahan die..with his friend he may be the champ but with me haha sorylahh.ur the loser! gahaahaha.well he's a good friend.great one to talk to :) whenever i have problems he'll be listening.haha.i've never meet him.but HAHA kalau jumpe mesti you lagi sakit hati weh.GAHAHAHAHA.well girls out there.soryy..he likes me.HAHA joke lah..die single nhh hot hot heattt lagi nh.mari mari sape nk number die i blh jualkan.haha harga blh runding :P die ade kembar tp kembar die dh ade gf.haha mcm singa betina.wakaaa wakaaaaaa

p/s ; haha okay meer.jgn marahhh.i nak mndi la nh.GHAHAHA

2010-07-22T22:29:00.002+08:00

saya sangat sedih..petang td khai cakap there's this girl whom maybe liked him.haihhh..why should i be sad?even khai already said thousands times that i am irreplaceable.haihhh jealousy go away please?

selamat hari raya

2010-07-19T22:44:00.006+08:00

khai ; kurt cobain. achi ; courtney love :P

td aku bukak folder gmbr nk tuka tuka folder then aku termasukkan gmbr dlm folder music.haha meraban aku carik.but then..bile dh tuka tuka folder i saw something entitled 'i miss this'..it was a conversation i had with khai longg time ago.haha masa 'cinta' kononnya bru berputik.haha..then at the last part ade lah satu part yg mmg kelakar nh.i was laughing like org gila.haha.act it was adapted by khai during raya time last year ikot iklan yg burung burung murai tuh....at that moment aku sukaaa sgt khai jwb sbb die akan jwb smpai aku gelak gelak gilaaa

achi ; burung apa?

khai ; burung muraaaii

achi ; burung apa?

khai ; burung muraaaaaaiiii nme die

achi ; burung apa?

khai ; burung murai sayangg..

achi ; burung apa?

khai ; burung murai man man burung murai.

haha..and immediately after that i called him and ask him burung apa?he did reply like he used to.haha but filled in with his laughter laa.haha..aww i miss old times.heee :) i miss when we are still called new lovebirds.hee

alhamdulilahh..

2010-07-19T11:41:00.005+08:00

so the first exam went quite well.english.the clock stated on my laptop is 11.43 a.m huu.gonna have my eko exam at 2.30 pm afterwards.huuu still studying but blogging a while shouldnt be any problem ayte?haha there's always a lil time for blogging.so today story is...

yesterday i had some mental disorder.haha.i was shocked that khai could raise his voice to me! jengjengjeng.i take it too seriously while he was just fooling around.haihhh..i was shocked je.i cry myself to sleep.haha.stupid.kenapa sensitive sgt nh achi?grrr.

then at 8 am just now i woke him up for his class.huu.its my part time job since he got into poli PD.since the first sem until now,his 2nd sem.i guess i could consider myself as lucky i got him..why?read this

achi ; u i cuak laa.takut la exam nh..

khai ; deep water deep water..rilex.jgn lpe doa.eah.gud luck sayanggg

achi ; air dlm??hahahahahaahah sepal lah u.doa tok i cpat.i aminkan je.thanks sayangg.

khai ; deep breath la tu.hee.bismillahh.amin.haha

achi ; hahaha.sengal.k lah byebye.i da nak gerak da nh.x bwk hp.huu tc u.love you.sayang you.miss you..sorry abt ystrday.

khai ; hmm.okay.love u too.miss you too.gud luck sayang!tiru kalau boleh.heee (this is so sengal.haha)

then i went and had my first exam in this matriculation programme.haha.interesting.i had my exam in library.pehhh sejuk gilaaaa.then straight after the exam i went back to my room.had my lunch and studying suddenly...

*khai's ringtone came up.i was like ape mimpi mamat nh.haha

khai ; sayangg.exam okay?

achi ; hahaa okay jeee.tah ape i tulis dlm essay tuh i pun x tau laaaa kan.haha.

khai ; doa i x termakbul lah nh?

achi ; haha ape je u doaa?bismillah - dgn name Allah ttbe je dh amin.hahaa apelaaa

khai ; dlm hati i,permudahkanlah hamba mu (i niatkan utk u) terangilah hatinya dgn cahaya kebenaran.luluskanlah die dlm peperiksaan...

thankss sayang.i dont expect that to come from you :) love you! always.heee.

so long avatar

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oookaaayyy i love the place! how i wish there was a place in this earth that is similar to it.haihhh so now i'll have a new place to be in my wishlist! PANDORA! yeaayy!! new word i'd learned.

- toru maktu! haha

- i jidim a vidien

haha the subtitle was unreadable woohooo.i cant even translate it! and i hate when i was strictly focus to the story and the audio..the subtitle came in and distract my focus-ness.hahaha.

ookaay i know i should be studying rather than watching avatar or get my self blogging at this hour.haha it is 0315 am.yeaaahhh morning!nak offline and i have a wedding to attend.who's getting married?haha my eyes and book! hallelujah for them.woo ooo owwwww!

totally in love?

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haha blog aku nh penuh dgn cerita kau je laah khairul aqmal.hee

it happened about last week dlm KTM on the way balik to seremban after one whole day shopping x ingat dunia.both pun.haha.yeahhh it was eerr last saturday.hee.rindu rindu rinduuu...

the situation was like this ;

*psgkan earphone kt telinga khai and mine,and i immediately play Cinta Antara Kita by baizura kahar.heee..(oh there's no conversation just actions that speaks louder than words)

khai ; *singing the guy part while looking into my eyes.

achi ; *singing the girl part while looking into his...

he hugg me all the time.heee..yeayyyy!

heeeee.he used to sang that song to me last time..awwwww rindu youu...

YA ALLAH jiwangnyer kiotrg.HAHA so not us...

okayy best gilaaa shopping dpt seluar baru bju baru selipar baru.ahah just bau handbag baruu tu je agak x kesampaian.haihhh.so sad.never mind next time :) hee

planning for mid sem breaks.yeayy.holidays! 24th i'll be in genting.yess.yesss...dgn bed dilla teng aman khai n lobak.hee..hopefully JADI! so stop telling about genting belum jadi pun lagi baru merancang.hee

oookaayyy back to KL..

time nak balik dr KL tuh goshhh hujan lebat sangat..so mcm terkandas dkt Pavilion.nk ke KLCC..haihhh so terpaksa laa beli payung dekat SASA..payung tuh comel sgt.but xde la gmbr die.hee nti i snap the whole picture of the payung.skrg utk pendahuluan this is the picture ;

there it is <3

then,tomorrow nye we went and bought some food and stuff for matriks.haihh..haha i started thinking that that is the situation in the future of us buying our groceries.haha silly.but seriously..im going to be the one whom pick all the stuff and he is just there to hold the stuff.haha like we did that day..hee cant wait for the future to come a lil bit faster.maybe 7 years faster?haha.its like what he said we'll be married 7 years from now :) sure we will sayang..kn?heee